I’ve been #undetectable for 3 years Now.
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I remember being first diagnosed and being so ashamed of myself as someone who has participated in so many programs designated towards HIV/STD prevention and awareness. I felt as someone who was already involved with spreading the message that I would be looked at as irresponsible or contradictory. I was ashamed, I didn’t tell anyone for a while. I was numb, I thought to myself “if I take my medicine and get to undetectable I’ll be fine. No one has to know.(besides anyone I was having sex with)” It wasn’t until my mom found my pill bottle that I was forced to tell her my situation.
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When I told my mom and stepdad, I felt I was letting my mom down. I felt that because of all the conversations we’ve had about HIV and my knowledge about how NOT to get it. After that, things in the house became intense.  
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I began to think that HIV could be spread through the most ignorant ways like: I was worried I could spread HIV by going to the Barbershop. I began to question everything I learned. Even knowing the accurate statistics! I began to worry about being that 1%! I BEGAN TO STIGMATIZE MYSELF!
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I chose to work in this field because I now understand the value of educating people on accurate information. I literally went from not caring at all. To standing up for the millions of gay black teenagers and young men that are at risk of transmission. I’ve worked with some incredibly intelligent, humble, passionate people. I’ve gotten to travel and work with people on a national level to bring awareness to stigma and policies that discriminate and criminalize HIV.
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I’m also standing up for all those who we lost to AIDS (which is not HIV). They went through a literal hell of medical confusion. And we now have access to tools to end HIV transmission for good! I’m happy to do what I do. And that’s because of WHO I AM.

Adonis, Milwaukee